Friday, January 25, 2013
Nerds, Publication and other Needy Women
Me, a few years ago, and I still have that hat, that pin, those shoes. Not much changes on me. I even have the same sparse wrinkles.
So what's new? There's a new/old nerd writing me. I used to know him from the old Myspace days. But I thought his picture was totally gay, gay is in gay, as in, "Are you gay and don't know it?" I've met a few of those in my time, but that's usually due to me being more masculine than most men, so whatever. And well, he was dorky. Not dorky as in, Jim Halpert from The Office, 'cause that character was Geik-Sheik. This guy, whom I'll just name Dork, is simply dorky, polo shirt, preppy clothes, you name it, yawn.
BUT, he's a Gemini, plus! He's well educated like me, plus! And he loves the silver screen and is a totally foodie, plus. He even has a Harley.
BUT, I could bench press him with one arm. He's not tiny, but I'm used to Big and Cactus Man, big manly 6'4" men.
Meh, but that never worked out so well for me. So we'll see.
The novel's last ten thousandth revision is in, and my students are like, "WHY ARE YOU NOT SENDING IT OUT ALREADY?" Including my colleagues who say, "It's time."
I have that answer already: fear.
Fear of the same thing happening as last time. I get all the way TO THE TOP EDITORS, then get shot down on some stupidly small thing. Like, "We already had a midwesterner makes good theme last season, so we don't need that kind right now, even though Neumann is really good."
Kind of like my fear of men. Which leads me to another rant about women-friends.
So CC, my one friend in the hood blew me off last Monday. We were supposed to exchange Christmas presents, but she is so GLUED to the side of her husband, she can't do anything or be without him for more than fifteen minutes. Sickening. Totally disappeared into him years ago. Ironically, except for when he was in Iraq, then suddenly she had all the time in the world to hang out and would get annoyed when I wouldn't call her back right away.
Oh, the irony of needy women. The irony. So I might donate her present to Boys Club. I'm not mad or jaded. Just done.
When you get my age, you stop the bullshit. You may NOT call anyone on it, because do you think they will care if you do?
You just take care of business.
More later, ladies and gents. Hugs to ya all.